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Dec. 14th, 2014 @ 11:12 am December Days: Dream Job
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From:cartesiandaemon
Date:December 15th, 2014 05:42 pm (UTC)
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*hugs* I'm sorry, I tend to worry too much, so I tend to overcompensate by describing _any_ complaint as whining, just in case I'm doing it too much... But I think that actually doesn't really help and I should break myself of the habit.

And also, I think I disproportionately resent it when I think something's wrong, but I can't do ANYTHING about it, so I sometimes make my current job sound quite bad, when it's actually quite good, because the things I can't fix get blown out of proportion. I think most of the time, it's not that other people ACTUALLY blame me, it's that I think (and I think I'm right, but I'm not sure) better procedures could prevent problems in advance, pretty much without costing more time, so whenever something goes wrong, I feel like I've completely failed :( But in fact, everyone just expects that level of errors and doesn't think worse of me for it, whereas I think every "you should have done X not Y" has an implicit "and you should have KNOWN that" tacked on, even if it doesn't :(

*hugs* Thank you for helping talk it out, I think actually spelling it out makes me realise the true situation a lot better.
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From:ghoti
Date:December 15th, 2014 05:48 pm (UTC)
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I can't say whether you're complaining too much or not, because of not following you around taking notes :P but it doesn't seem too much to me.

Anyway, I'm glad that you feel better now and am always happy to listen.
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From:cartesiandaemon
Date:December 16th, 2014 01:12 pm (UTC)
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*hugs* *hugs* *hugs* I think, if I'm honest, it's that the problems are real, but if I focus on them too much, it makes them feel completely insurmountable, which then prevents me getting anything done.
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From:ghoti
Date:December 16th, 2014 05:51 pm (UTC)
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That sounds familiar *hugs*